Review: DEAD ELEVEN by Jimmy Juliano

 

Dead Eleven by Jimmy Juliano
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

On a creepy island where everyone has a strange obsession with the year 1994, a newcomer arrives, hoping to learn the truth about her son's death--but finds herself pulled deeper and deeper into the bizarrely insular community and their complicated rules...

Clifford Island. When Willow Stone finds these words written on the floor of her deceased son's bedroom, she's perplexed. She's never heard of it before, but soon learns it's a tiny island off of Wisconsin's Door County peninsula, 200 miles from Willow's home. Why would her son write this on his floor? Determined to find answers, Willow sets out for the island.

After a few days on Clifford, Willow realizes: this place is not normal. Everyone seems to be stuck in a particular day in 1994: they wear outdated clothing, avoid modern technology, and, perhaps most mystifyingly, watch the OJ Simpson car chase every evening. When she asks questions, people are evasive, but she learns one thing: close your curtains at night.

High schooler Lily Becker has lived on Clifford her entire life, and she is sick of the island's twisted mythology and adhering to the rules. She's been to the mainland, and everyone is normal there, so why is Clifford so weird? Lily is determined to prove that the islanders' beliefs are a sham. But are they?

Five weeks after Willow arrives on the island, she disappears. Willow's brother Harper comes to Clifford searching for his sister, and when he learns the truth--that this island is far more sinister than anyone could have imagined--he is determined to blow the whole thing open.

If he can get out alive...

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Oh wow, I really wish I'd written this review earlier, after I'd finished the book--and not, like, six months later. But these things happen--and I feel that I really must write something about this book. Because this is one spectacular horror novel.

The interweaving narratives and storytelling modes that work together to tell the 'bigger picture' story is simply amazing. Sometimes, combining so many narratives can cause pacing or tension problems, but not with this novel. Without all the narrators, I feel it would make a far less terrifying story.

I particularly adored the setting. I mean, I love stories set on islands. I love missing-person stories. I love horrifying monsters. I love weird groups and cults.  And this book has everything.

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Yellowface by R.F. Kuang
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Athena Liu is a literary darling and June Hayward is literally nobody.

White lies
When Athena dies in a freak accident, June steals her unpublished manuscript and publishes it as her own under the ambiguous name Juniper Song.

Dark humour
But as evidence threatens June’s stolen success, she will discover exactly how far she will go to keep what she thinks she deserves.

Deadly consequences…
What happens next is entirely everyone else’s fault.

With its totally immersive first-person voice, Yellowface grapples with questions of diversity, racism, and cultural appropriation, as well as the terrifying alienation of social media. R.F. Kuang’s novel is timely, razor-sharp, and eminently readable.

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This book is a masterpiece. And it exposes soooooo much--not just in terms of biases within the publishing industry and how the industry works, but the racism and erasure of non-white voices in the industry and elsewhere.

I'm a traditionally published author, and there were so many eye-opening moments in this. Not just in those that really exposed how the book business works (making it a great read for those who aren't writers, as it teaches so much) but in making me think deeper about everything. A lot of complex themes are explored. There is so much important discourse. And all of this is done within the most compelling narrative voice ever. Because June's narration is just FANTASTIC. She felt so, so believable. So realistic. I mean, at times I felt like I was reading a memoir. That's how much I believed the writing.

And June's characterisation was truly phenomenal. She is blood-thirsty. She turns everything to her advantage. Even when her crimes were catching up with her and there seemed to be no way out, I was struck by how she always managed to use it for her own advantage again and again. She is the epitome of an unlikeable character--and I was struck by just how unlikeable she is while the narrative itself is hugely likeable. I mean, this is one of my fave reads of 2023. And even though June is pretty much an awful person you can totally argue that she's a good person who just made one bad mistake (a terrible mistake!!!) and then didn't want to be found out. Like, everything snowballed. There were times when I wanted her to get away with it, because the first-person narration is just that good at justifying it, and then I was horrified at myself.

This was a compulsive read that I just couldn't put down.

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Review: COUNTERFEIT by Kirstin Chen

 

Counterfeit by Kirstin Chen
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

For fans of Hustlers and How to Get Filthy Rich in Rising Asia, the story of two Asian American women who band together to grow a counterfeit handbag scheme into a global enterprise--an incisive and glittering blend of fashion, crime, and friendship from the author of Bury What We Cannot Take and Soy Sauce for Beginners.

Money can't buy happiness... but it can buy a decent fake.

Ava Wong has always played it safe. As a strait-laced, rule-abiding Chinese American lawyer with a successful surgeon as a husband, a young son, and a beautiful home--she's built the perfect life. But beneath this façade, Ava's world is crumbling: her marriage is falling apart, her expensive law degree hasn't been used in years, and her toddler's tantrums are pushing her to the breaking point.

Enter Winnie Fang, Ava's enigmatic college roommate from Mainland China, who abruptly dropped out under mysterious circumstances. Now, twenty years later, Winnie is looking to reconnect with her old friend. But the shy, awkward girl Ava once knew has been replaced with a confident woman of the world, dripping in luxury goods, including a coveted Birkin in classic orange. The secret to her success? Winnie has developed an ingenious counterfeit scheme that involves importing near-exact replicas of luxury handbags and now she needs someone with a U.S. passport to help manage her business--someone who'd never be suspected of wrongdoing, someone like Ava. But when their spectacular success is threatened and Winnie vanishes once again, Ava is left to face the consequences.

Swift, surprising, and sharply comic, Counterfeit is a stylish and feminist caper with a strong point of view and an axe to grind. Peering behind the curtain of the upscale designer storefronts and the Chinese factories where luxury goods are produced, Kirstin Chen interrogates the myth of the model minority through two unforgettable women determined to demand more from life.

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This book has been on my radar forever. I'd borrowed it from the library a couple of times but then my loan was always due before I had a chance to start it, and when this was about to happen for the third time in a row I decided to knuckle down and get started. And I read this book soooooo quickly!

I love stories about con men and women. I love stories where the narrators lie. I love stories that are multiple POV and you never know who is the most reliable. I love stories with huge plot twists. So, essentially, this book was PERFECT for me!!!!

Counterfeit follows Ava Wong, a pretty 'ordinary' law-abiding woman, as she reunites with former best friend Winnie Fang--and becomes embroiled in Winnie's illegal, fraudulent business where she produces counterfeit designer handbags. So, like, I didn't realise that I would be so interested in the world of handbag production and counterfeits. This book has soooo much detail on this, and I found it fascinating. Like, we have pages and pages about it, and it's so eye-opening.

But the characterisation is what really makes this book amazing. And the plot twist. Okay, spoilers ahead! So, for the first half of the book, I was feeling sorry for Ava. She's married to a pretty awful guy who cuts off her money and controls her and throws strops. She's having to single-parent their child because he decides to move somewhere else for work, leaving his family for pretty much the whole week, every week. And when Ava dares go and visit her family, he throws a temper tantrum about that, and removes her from their joint bank account. Cue Winnie stepping in and giving her an easy way to make a lot of money. We see Ava struggling with the ethics of this and we see how once she gets started she can't get out. There are a lot of mind games, and she just seems so vulnerable. The narrative at this point also consists entirely of Ava recounting all these events to a police detective, as part of her interview, so it's first person. (I loved this as a narrative mode, plus we have no speechmarks for dialogue within this as the whole thing is pretty much the prose transcript of Ava's speech.)

I totally believed her--and then part two gives us Winnie's third-person narration where we begin to piece together that Ava has been lying to the police the whole time (and lying to us!). She's not innocent, being swept along by Winnie. She too is a con woman (she conned us all!). And that reveal is just FANTASTIC. So, so, so good!!!! We then alternate between the rest of Ava's dialogue to the detective and Winnie's narration, which give quite different versions of the same events. And I loved this, because who are we supposed to believe? Winnie's narration seems more objective as it's third person, but it's still close third person, so can she be trusted either?

I am a sucker for unreliable narrators and this book was great!

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Review: BABY TEETH by Meg Grehan

 

Baby Teeth by Meg Grehan
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

A unique verse novel of queer love, lust, and vampires. From the award-winning author of The Deepest Breath and The Space Between.

The blood
Feeds the hunger
That threatens everything

It starts when Claudia offers her a yellow rose.
Immy has been in love before – many times, across many lifetimes. But never as deeply, as intensely as this.
Claudia has never been in love this before either. But then, this is her first time with a vampire.
The forbidden thirst for blood runs deep in Immy. And within her mind clamour the voices, of all the others she has been, their desires, and their wrongs.


“A fresh, dark take on the vampire myth and desire, Baby Teeth shows vampires haunted by their pasts and memories, where immortality is not one long life but a broken patchwork of different experiences. It will twine around your heart and bite, ever so gently. I adored it.” – Helen Corcoran

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I picked up BABY TEETH at Waterstones just before my husband and I went on honeymoon. I then read almost all the book in one day but took it with me to finish on the train, only to them not be able to find the book. And then today, about four months later, I found it! No idea where it had been hiding all that time because weirdly it was just on my bookcase now, but I finally finished it. And that ending was perfect.

BABY TEETH is this beautiful sapphic story of vampires and lust and desire. It’s about memories and identity and found family, and I actually loved every single character. I also loved the take on vampires that Meg Grehan gives us: vampires living multiple lives, becoming different people, rather than living one life forever. It was so refreshing and a great way to explore the characters and their relationships.

And this is a novel in verse too! The writing is gorgeous, with some truly beautiful lines and imagery.

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Review: HER MAJESTY'S ROYAL COVEN by Juno Dawson

 

Her Majesty's Royal Coven by Juno Dawson

A Discovery of Witches meets The Craft in this the first installment of this epic fantasy trilogy about a group of childhood friends who are also witches.

If you look hard enough at old photographs, we're there in the background: healers in the trenches; Suffragettes; Bletchley Park oracles; land girls and resistance fighters. Why is it we help in times of crisis? We have a gift. We are stronger than Mundanes, plain and simple.

At the dawn of their adolescence, on the eve of the summer solstice, four young girls--Helena, Leonie, Niamh and Elle--took the oath to join Her Majesty's Royal Coven, established by Queen Elizabeth I as a covert government department. Now, decades later, the witch community is still reeling from a civil war and Helena is now the reigning High Priestess of the organization. Yet Helena is the only one of her friend group still enmeshed in the stale bureaucracy of HMRC. Elle is trying to pretend she's a normal housewife, and Niamh has become a country vet, using her powers to heal sick animals. In what Helena perceives as the deepest betrayal, Leonie has defected to start her own more inclusive and intersectional coven, Diaspora. And now Helena has a bigger problem. A young warlock of extraordinary capabilities has been captured by authorities and seems to threaten the very existence of HMRC. With conflicting beliefs over the best course of action, the four friends must decide where their loyalties lie: with preserving tradition, or doing what is right.

Juno Dawson explores gender and the corrupting nature of power in a delightful and provocative story of magic and matriarchy, friendship and feminism. Dealing with all the aspects of contemporary womanhood, as well as being phenomenally powerful witches, Niamh, Helena, Leonie and Elle may have grown apart but they will always be bound by the sisterhood of the coven.

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At the moment, this is a DNF for me. I really wanted to love this book, and don't get me wrong, for the right reader, this would be a great book. I adore all of Juno's other books, but this is more of a personal issue taste for me, because I've found I just don't really like adult stories about witches covens and the politics among them. I couldn't get through A Discovery of Witches for the same reason, but I read more of this one than that. And yes, I knew going into this book that this was going to be about covens. I felt compelled to try it because of loving the author's other books, but I just couldn't get on with it. Having said that, this book is very well written and I was impressed with how modern it felt, blending traditional coven life with modern life/technology. This worldbuilding was phenomenal, and when I next update my class reading list when I'm teaching worldbuilding, I will be including this.

The characterisation was also fantastic and I loved that it was multiple POV third-person. Normally, if I get a book where I'm not sure I'll like it because it's about covens, I only manage to read a chapter or so, but I read about six of this one, which is testament to how strong it is.

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Review: I'M GLAD MY MOM DIED by Jennette McCurdy

 

I'm Glad My Mom Died by Jennette McCurdy
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

A heartbreaking and hilarious memoir by iCarly and Sam & Cat star Jennette McCurdy about her struggles as a former child actor—including eating disorders, addiction, and a complicated relationship with her overbearing mother—and how she retook control of her life.

Jennette McCurdy was six years old when she had her first acting audition. Her mother’s dream was for her only daughter to become a star, and Jennette would do anything to make her mother happy. So she went along with what Mom called “calorie restriction,” eating little and weighing herself five times a day. She endured extensive at-home makeovers while Mom chided, “Your eyelashes are invisible, okay? You think Dakota Fanning doesn’t tint hers?” She was even showered by Mom until age sixteen while sharing her diaries, email, and all her income.

In I’m Glad My Mom Died , Jennette recounts all this in unflinching detail—just as she chronicles what happens when the dream finally comes true. Cast in a new Nickelodeon series called iCarly , she is thrust into fame. Though Mom is ecstatic, emailing fan club moderators and getting on a first-name basis with the paparazzi (“Hi Gale!”), Jennette is riddled with anxiety, shame, and self-loathing, which manifest into eating disorders, addiction, and a series of unhealthy relationships. These issues only get worse when, soon after taking the lead in the iCarly spinoff Sam & Cat alongside Ariana Grande, her mother dies of cancer. Finally, after discovering therapy and quitting acting, Jennette embarks on recovery and decides for the first time in her life what she really wants.

Told with refreshing candor and dark humor, I’m Glad My Mom Died is an inspiring story of resilience, independence, and the joy of shampooing your own hair.

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So, I was kind of reluctant to read this memoir when I first heard about it (though knowing nothing about the book) as I didn't like the title. It felt clickbait-y to me, and I just didn't like that at all. But then I got it from the library, and wow. Jennette McCurdy had such a difficult childhood as a child actress. She was forced into this work by her mum and abused for years by her. Reading this was difficult. McCurdy's story is traumatic and complicated. I really do applaud her for writing this.

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Review: BUNNY by Mona Awad

 

Bunny by Mona Awad
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

The Vegetarian meets Heathers in this darkly funny, seductively strange novel about a lonely graduate student drawn into a clique of rich girls who seem to move and speak as one

"We were just these innocent girls in the night trying to make something beautiful. We nearly died. We very nearly did, didn't we?"

Samantha Heather Mackey couldn't be more of an outsider in her small, highly selective MFA program at New England's Warren University. A scholarship student who prefers the company of her dark imagination to that of most people, she is utterly repelled by the rest of her fiction writing cohort--a clique of unbearably twee rich girls who call each other "Bunny," and are often found entangled in a group hug so tight they become one.

But everything changes when Samantha receives an invitation to the Bunnies' fabled "Smut Salon," and finds herself inexplicably drawn to their front door--ditching her only friend, Ava, a caustic art school dropout, in the process. As Samantha plunges deeper and deeper into the sinister yet saccharine world of the Bunny cult and starts to take part in their ritualistic off-campus "Workshop" where they magically conjure their monstrous creations, the edges of reality begin to blur, and her friendships with Ava and the Bunnies are brought into deadly collision.

A spellbinding, down-the-rabbit-hole tale of loneliness and belonging, creativity and agency, and friendship and desire, Bunny is a dazzlingly original second book.

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Oh, wow. This book. THIS BOOK!

Joining a cult while studying your MFA in creative writing? A cult where you summon monsters? This was the perfect book for me to read while finishing my MFA in creative writing.

The writing is just so trippy, so psychedelic, and it's the exact kind of horror I love. And I don't even want to say any more than that, because I think going into this book with no idea or expectations about it meant I had the best reading experience possible.

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Review: CLARA POOLE AND THE LONG WAY ROUND by Taylor Tyng

 

Clara Poole and the Long Way Round by Taylor Tyng
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Mr. Lemoncello meets the Amazing Race in this quirky high-octane balloon-racing middle grade around-the-world adventure.

When an unintended flight over Michigan in her class science project—a lawn chair held aloft by balloons—brings her instant celebrity, Clara Poole is invited to be the spokesperson for a round-the-world hot air balloon race. But when her overprotective father, still mourning the death of his wife, refuses, in a moment of brash defiance, Clara forges his signature and runs away to Paris to take her place in the skies. If only she’d read the fine print first.
 
Partnered with a veteran aeronaut who wants nothing to do with her, Clara faces down ten treacherous stages in a race around the world—capturing flags in the perilous mountains of Nepal; being a guest of honor at a maybe-wedding in the Saharan desert; flying through rings of fire in Hong Kong—all while learning the ropes alongside a colorful cast of international competitors.
 
But there are more dangers than those planned as part of the contest. Someone is trying to sabotage the competition. And surviving this race means Clara must come to terms with the tragedy that set her rashly escaping to the skies in the first place, and accepting that forgiving herself isn’t a process she has to undertake alone.
 
Gorgeous prose and winning characters combine in this quirky, often-hilarious, sometimes heart-breaking, and thoroughly captivating middle grade adventure series starter from an incredible new talent.

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I've been looking forward to reading this book for, like, forever, and it did not disappoint at all! CLARA POOLE AND THE LONG WAY ROUND is a zany balloon adventure following an impulsive and fun (but traumatised) twelve-year-old as she sets off on the adventure of a lifetime around the world. And not only that, but this book is filled with a dynamic cast and beautiful prose.

Seriously, the writing in this is sooooo good. Not only is the imagery beautiful, but the writing itself is rhythmic and I found myself marvelling over the sounds of many of the sentences as I was reading--and I can immediately see why this book would be a great choice to read aloud to kids.

The characterisation is so stunning too. Every character was authentic and believable, and motivations and backgrounds were shown perfectly. I also loved how there were so many characters of different ages here--and Gildersleeve and Clara's father were two of my favourite characters. But of course I loved Clara best of all. She was imperfect and reckless at times, but we could see exactly why she was like that. Her emotions guided her and often led her into danger, and I loved how we could also see how quickly her emotions and reactions changed. This felt very authentic for a child.

One of my favourite things about this book though was the setting, and simply the way the world is described. It's fantastical and vibrant and exuberant and out-there and I LOVED it. This is the perfect middle grade novel, and I cannot wait for the sequel.

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Review: LULLABY by Leïla Slimani

 

Lullaby by Leïla Slimani and translated by Sam Taylor
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

When Myriam, a French-Moroccan lawyer, decides to return to work after having children, she and her husband look for the perfect caretaker for their two young children. They never dreamed they would find Louise: a quiet, polite and devoted woman who sings to their children, cleans the family's chic apartment in Paris's upscale tenth arrondissement, stays late without complaint and is able to host enviable birthday parties.

The couple and nanny become more dependent on each other. But as jealousy, resentment and suspicions increase, Myriam and Paul's idyllic tableau is shattered...

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I really enjoyed this novel. It was recommended to me by thriller and crime-writer Sophie McKenzie as an example of a novel that begins with an omniscient narrator, and I just fell in love with the style.

We zoom in and out of characters' heads as we learn the story of an unreliable and murderous nanny. Ultimately, it's the plot of quite a lot of nanny thrillers--I can think of several others that follow this rough plot where the nanny is a danger to the kids--but the execution of this is phenomenal. The depth of characterisation is impressive.

And what really got me was how this novel is based on a specific real-life case too.

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Review: ANY OTHER FAMILY by Eleanor Brown

 

Any Other Family by Eleanor Brown
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

he New York Times bestselling author of The Weird Sisters returns with a striking and intimate new novel about three very different women facing an impossible question: What makes a family?

They look just like any other family. But they aren't a family like any other – not quite. Instead, they are three sets of parents who adopted four biological siblings, committing to keeping the children connected after the death of their grandmother.



Tabitha, who adopted the twins, is the planner of the group, responsible for coordinating playdates and birthdays and Sunday night dinners, insistent that everything happens just so. Quiet and steady Ginger, single mother to the eldest daughter, resists the forced togetherness, her own unsettled childhood leaving her wary of trusting too much. And Elizabeth is still reeling from going directly from failed fertility treatments into adopting a newborn, terrified that her unhappiness means she was not meant to be a mother at all.

But when the three women receive a surprising call from their children’s birth mother, announcing she is pregnant again and wants them to help her find an adoptive family for this child too, the delicate bonds they are still struggling to form threaten to collapse. As tensions rise, the women reckon with their own feelings about what it means to be a mother and what they owe each other as a family.

Set across the span of a family vacation, one full of boisterous laughter and emotional upheaval, Any Other Family is a thought-provoking and poignant look at how families shift and evolve and a striking portrait of motherhood in all its forms.

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I don't normally read contemporary fiction like this, but I'm really glad I did. It has a slower pace to what I'm used to, but the character portraits in this are phenomenal. I honestly can't get over that. They're so, so good. Like, it's all close-third person, being narrated by the three main women, and each feels so distinct. I was particularly impressed with how different Elizabeth's narrative voice was. Because this takes skill.

I read this when I was having a miscarriage, and surprisingly, reading a book all about motherhood was actually really cathartic and soothing.

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Review: ME VS BRAIN by Hayley Morris

 

Me vs Brain: An Overthinker’s Guide to Life by Hayley Morris
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Brain: We left the oven on!
Me: No don't say that, I've not got time for this!
Brain: The house is probably on fire!
Me: Stop it, I need to write this book description.
Brain: But the blazing fire.
Me: We didn't even use the oven today.
Brain: But what if -
Me: No. We're not doing this, I'm finishing this description.

Hello there! Hayley Morris here. Or you might know me as the Brain Girl, and don't be fooled...it's not because I'm outrageously smart. Just an avid overthinker. I'm on a mission to prove once and for all that You. Are. Normal. Running through imaginary arguments whilst showering, hiding your knickers in the nurse's office before they look directly into your vagina, or not knowing how to be a normal human when you have the plumber over. I've spent the majority of my life saying and doing embarrassing things that wake me up in a cold sweat at 3am as my Brain reminds me of every minor detail.

In this book, I've overthought absolutely everything so you don't have to. I'll be talking about everything from dating to discharge, mental health to menstrual cups. I might not be able to banish your anxiety or make you feel 100% comfortable in your skin, but I hope I can at least give you a break from the constant brain chatter and we can rejoice and laugh at how similar we actually all are.

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I follow Hayley Morris on Instagram and think the videos she makes are wonderful, so I was interested in reading this as soon as it came out. And it's the first book I've read in a long time that I devoured in less than 24 hours.

This is a wonderful memoir-style book, and it's great for people like me who've got anxiety as it's reassuring. It's normalising so many symptoms of anxiety and saying it's okay to speak about them, it's okay to laugh about them, and it's okay to get help for them.

It's fun, and it's powerful, and it's sad at times too. You'll laugh and cry as you read this.

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Review: I'M THE GIRL by Courtney Summers

 

I'm the Girl by Courtney Summers
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

The new groundbreaking queer thriller from New York Times bestselling and Edgar-award Winning author Courtney Summers.

When sixteen-year-old Georgia Avis discovers the dead body of thirteen-year-old Ashley James, she teams up with Ashley's older sister, Nora, to find and bring the killer to justice before he strikes again. But their investigation throws Georgia into a world of unimaginable privilege and wealth, without conscience or consequence, and as Ashley’s killer closes in, Georgia will discover when money, power and beauty rule, it might not be a matter of who is guilty—but who is guiltiest.

A spiritual successor to the 2018 breakout hit, Sadie, I'm the Girl is a masterfully written, bold, and unflinching account of how one young woman feels in her body as she struggles to navigate a deadly and predatory power structure while asking readers one question: if this is the way the world is, do you accept it?

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I am a massive fan of Courtney Summers, and this book is one I am also now a massive fan of.

It's dark, this one. And uncomfortable. Disturbing. Everything I 'like' from a dark contemporary YA read. But this one also hit differently. I'm normally fine reading disturbing content, but I was not fine after reading this. And that's how real this all felt.

Georgia's a great character. She's lost. She's angry. She's trying to work out why things are the way that they are. And she's looking for a mother figure as her mother recently passed away. And so when Cleo steps in, she wants to get close to her. Cleo and her husband run Aspera, and Georgia wants to be an 'Aspera girl'--a beautiful girl who works there--precisely because her mother said she wouldn't be one. Georgia is vain too, in an entirely normal teen girl way. Before the book begins she's had some nude photos taken by a 'professional' (who later turns out not to be a professional.)

And this is a story about grooming and child sexual abuse. We watch as Georgia becomes a victim of this, first being employed in small roles at Aspera, then seeing it turn more into what it actually is. There's graphic sexual content between Georgia (a sixteen-year-old) and Cleo's middle-aged husband Matthew. Cleo appears to be on board with this. And this all happens even though Georgia tells them she's a lesbian. She has in fact got a crush on Nora, who's the sister of Ashley--and the book starts with Georgia finding 13-year-old Ashley's body, so there is a lot packed in this.

It starts off as a murder mystery, but the actual murder mystery doesn't really control much of the plot. It's very much secondary to Georgia trying to become an Aspera girl.

One of the things I really liked was Georgia's relationship with Tyler, her brother. He's always looking out for her, and this, alongside Nora's relationship with Georgia, helped balance this book so it didn't feel like it was being devoured by all the slime. Because that's how I felt while reading a lot of this--slimy.

The language is also beautiful in this. So, so lyrical.

This is an important book to read. It's about beauty and appearance, privilege and wealth and poverty, truth and lies, policing and the cover-up of crimes by those with money.

Content warnings for: rape, child abuse, child sexual abuse, grooming, murder, implied incest (though I don't think that actually happened and was just set up to look like it had, by one of the characters, to set someone else up for murder).

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Earthlings by Sayaka Murata
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

As a child, Natsuki doesn’t fit in with her family. Her parents favor her sister, and her best friend is a plush toy hedgehog named Piyyut, who talks to her. He tells her that he has come from the planet Popinpobopia on a special quest to help her save the Earth. One summer, on vacation with her family and her cousin Yuu in her grandparents’ ramshackle wooden house in the mountains of Nagano, Natsuki decides that she must be an alien, which would explain why she can’t seem to fit in like everyone else. Later, as a grown woman, living a quiet life with her asexual husband, Natsuki is still pursued by dark shadows from her childhood, and decides to flee the “baby factory” of society for good, searching for answers about the vast and frightening mysteries of the universe--answers only Natsuki has the power to uncover.

Dreamlike, sometimes shocking, and always strange and wonderful, Earthlings asks what it means to be happy in a stifling world, and cements Sayaka Murata’s status as a master chronicler of the outsider experience and our own uncanny universe.

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This was... weird

Weird. So weird.

I need to think about this one… a lot. It’s disturbing and creepy and… weird.

Content warnings for child sexual abuse.

Edited to add: Yesterday I finished Earthlings by Sayaka Murata and it’s one of the creepiest books that just gets more and more disturbing and weird as you read.

The plot is ridiculous, but it’s also dark, about child sexual abuse, and I’ve never seen that tackled in this way before. I also wasn't quite prepared for how dark this book was going to be as the marketing blurb doesn't really indicate that. I was expecting a semi-dark story about a woman whose best friend is her childhood toy and who believes she herself is an alien.

But this book is so much more than that, in a very dark and twisted way. Natsuki's sexually abused by a teacher as a child, which leads her to have sex with her cousin when she's eleven years old--she does this as a way to 'survive, no matter what', and the POV is so close to her as a child that you can kind of see why she'd think that.

This book is well written, there's no doubt about that. But then we have the rest of the plot. Natsuki's shunned for her actions with her cousin, and she's abused physically and verbally by her family. She murders her teacher, and eventually marries her husband in a marriage of convenience. He definitely seems to be ace-coded and they say multiple times how they're not friends. They're marrying to get their families off their backs.

And their families are so obsessed with them having children. Natsuki refers to this as 'the factory' and she wants to be an 'earthling' and want this, because she wants to fit in. But she doesn't--as she still thinks she's an alien... Yet marriage and babies are all society wants from Natsuki. And so the book also shines a light on acephobia too. There are so many conversations between characters that Natsuki witnesses/overhears/has directed at her that really focus around the acephobia, though it's never named as such.

I’m not really sure how I feel about the ace rep in the book either. Like, the term asexuality isn’t even used on page, but it’s in a lot of marketing copy, and just… I felt at times that celibacy was actually being looked at in relation to Natsuki... but then other times it did seem to be ace-coded. Yet if this is supposed to be ace rep then it’s problematic. —hello ace husband who at one point tries to commit actual incest to be normal, and likening an character to an alien/having the ace character be one of the three in the book who think they are aliens as they're not indoctorined into the family.

And, like, that ending—I have to talk about it. Natsuki, her husband, and her cousin can't fit into society so they live together outside of society. They talk about how they don't have sex but now don't mind nudity (before this was triggering for Natsuki and her husband). I thought the romantic attraction discourse was quite interesting, as I believe all three characters were also coded as aro too at the start of the part of the book where they choose to live together as their own platonic unit... But then we watch these three characters almost 'degenerate', becoming animalistic... They talk a lot about sexual attraction and how they either don't experience it or they do but don't feel any need to act on it. And then they turn into cannibals. ACTUAL CANNIBALS.

Is this what supposedly happens to all ace or aro people? Is it the factory/society that tries to keep ace-spec people on track? And when these people escape society, they turn into cannibals? If so, then that is so, so offensive.

But like, also, is any of the plot at the end even real?

This book has confused me a lot and I’ve got all these tangled thoughts about it.

Review: DEPT. OF SPECULATION by Jenny Offill

 

Dept. of Speculation by Jenny Offill
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Dept. of Speculation is a portrait of a marriage. It is also a beguiling rumination on the mysteries of intimacy, trust, faith, knowledge, and the condition of universal shipwreck that unites us all.

Jenny Offill's heroine, referred to in these pages as simply "the wife," once exchanged love letters with her husband postmarked Dept. of Speculation, their code name for all the uncertainty that inheres in life and in the strangely fluid confines of a long relationship. As they confront an array of common catastrophes - a colicky baby, a faltering marriage, stalled ambitions - the wife analyzes her predicament, invoking everything from Keats and Kafka to the thought experiments of the Stoics to the lessons of doomed Russian cosmonauts. She muses on the consuming, capacious experience of maternal love, and the near total destruction of the self that ensues from it as she confronts the friction between domestic life and the seductions and demands of art.

With cool precision, in language that shimmers with rage and wit and fierce longing, Jenny Offill has crafted an exquisitely suspenseful love story that has the velocity of a train hurtling through the night at top speed. Exceptionally lean and compact, Dept. of Speculation is a novel to be devoured in a single sitting, though its bracing emotional insights and piercing meditations on despair and love will linger long after the last page. 

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I came across this book recently when reading James Wood’s How Fiction Works; he spoke fondly of Jenny Offil’s second novel, and I love more ‘experimental’ literary styles, so I decided to give it a go.

This is a constantly shifting epistolary novel told in fragments and snatches about hope and grief and life. It follows an unnamed narrator as she gets married, becomes a mother, discovers her husband is having an affair, and then how their relationship eventually survives it. Time is ever-shifting in this novel, and it’s the first book I’ve read where the narration mode changes swiftly and deftly (the woman is both ‘I’ and the husband ‘you’; they become ‘the wife’ and ‘the husband’ when she discovers his affair, before the first-person narrative resumes at the end when their relationship is beginning to repair.

There are a lot of profound thoughts in this book, and the writing is simply beautiful.

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Review: NOVEMBER 9 by Colleen Hoover

 

November 9 by Colleen Hoover
My rating: 2 of 5 stars


Fallon meets Ben, an aspiring novelist, the day before her scheduled cross-country move. Their untimely attraction leads them to spend Fallon’s last day in L.A. together, and her eventful life becomes the creative inspiration Ben has always sought for his novel. Over time and amidst the various relationships and tribulations of their own separate lives, they continue to meet on the same date every year. Until one day Fallon becomes unsure if Ben has been telling her the truth or fabricating a perfect reality for the sake of the ultimate plot twist.

Can Ben’s relationship with Fallon—and simultaneously his novel—be considered a love story if it ends in heartbreak?

Beloved #1 New York Times bestselling author Colleen Hoover returns with an unforgettable love story between a writer and his unexpected muse.

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November 9 is the first book by Colleen Hoover, and it feels very NA to me. Which was a surprise.

But I just couldn’t get behind the relationship ship as I couldn’t relate. Ben just seemed obnoxious and egotistical, and Fallon invited him to help her pack to leave for NY after a day of knowing her. He’s pretty smarmy and makes so many sexual references the first time they meet—and I guess there is sexual tension between them. Fallon seems to like what he says and does, how he behaves. Being ace, I just couldn’t relate and so I found myself not really backing their relationship. It seemed based on sexual attraction and maybe Fallon’s desperation, rather than romantic attraction and kindness.

But I just couldn’t get into this mostly because of Ben’s character—I just didn’t like the guy (hey, that’s strong characterisation!). What really annoyed me is how controlling and manipulative he is, and how it’s presented as a presumably romantic thing (though I couldn’t sense any actual loving romance). He controls what Fallon wears to their first date, lectures her until she sort of agrees/goes along with him undressing her, and he told her that how she feels about her scars is wrong and that he knows the right way to feel about them. I get that maybe this was meant to show him trying to boost her confidence, but wow is he arrogant. Fallon has major burn scars on her body, and Ben even says he knows how she feels because he has had small burns when cooking before. Um, that’s not the same thing at all!

By page 52 I’d already decided this was a toxic relationship, which intrigued me to read on to see if Fallon spotted this. I’d also heard a lot of Hoover’s books are criticised for romanticising toxic relationships, so I wasn’t expecting this to be outed. But still kind of hoped it would be...

The writing itself was okay on a craft-level. A bit clunky in places, kind of simplistic in others. But I kept thinking of other writers who I think are stronger in this genre, both in terms of craft and writing what I consider actual romance.

I was mainly super interested to read this book though as Colleen Hoover is a powerhouse-name and I know so many readers love her. There are such strong opinions about her books, and so I wanted to see why. And I can see how she is doing something a little different, giving us a New Adult romance that's relationship-based, with sex, and also plot twists. Of course, I know many other authors who do this too, but I think Hoover's marketing team (and when she was self-published) are great, and she's clearly pleasing readers.


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